My inbox has been inundated with suggestions for New Year's resolutions from various bloggers and websites I follow. The taglines read: The Top 5 Resolutions for Families in 2012, The Only Resolution You Need, Why Resolutions Don't Work, 52 Projects for Your New Year, and on and on. I read them all, while munching on chips I should be avoiding based on one of my resolutions.
I can't neglect to mention that I contributed to the fray with my recent post: My Three Words for 2012.
I can't help that I love the fresh canvas of a new year. I'm hardwired that way. I read in Isaiah 43, "I am about to do a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?" and I get all jittery and excited and empowered with anticipation. What are you going to do, God?
Then I read down a little further in Isaiah, pause, read it again:
"...you did not call on me...you have been weary of me..."
"...you did not call on me...you have been weary of me..."
Oh, dear, did He notice I didn't pray yesterday? Did he see how I was bored at church; how my worship was stale and stilted? Did he catch me trying to cut the fabric between the sacred and secular, when His design is for one continuous thread? Why am I eating all these chips?
My heart's desire is that all this talk of new things and new ways and new projects would lead me deeper unto God, not reveal that I'm just plain weary of Him, of this following after and need a distraction.
And then again, perhaps this is Grace. His gift of new ideas and fresh streams in the desert so that I may be renewed and be a voice that renews and inspires others to continue in the pursuit of God and self-improvement.
With a heap of grace and a side of chips.
Wow! I have a draft saved that basically says the same thing. Your words seem to have more grace about the matter of resolutions.
ReplyDeleteI love your honesty. Thank you.
ReplyDeleteJill, this is beautiful ... and dead on. Thank you. It made me laugh out loud and sigh deeply in the next breath.
ReplyDeleteLove your posts, Jill. And every so often it occurs to me that I should let you know that. Thanks for writing!
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