From Bethlehem to Aleppo

I prefer the sweet little baby in the manger on my shelf, the Christmas lights, and the warm fuzzy family memories made possible by the birth of Christ.  Let's just hang out there forever, because if we move forward just a few verses in Matthew, just two years on the timeline, we see with unflinching proof just WHY the world needs a Savior.  

Three chilling verses in Matthew gave me pause today.

When Herod saw that he had been tricked by the wise men, he was infuriated, and he sent and killed all the children in and around Bethlehem who were two years old or under, according to the time that he had learned from the wise men.  

Then was fulfilled what had been spoken through the prophet Jeremiah:

"A voice was heard in Ramah, wailing and loud lamentation, Rachel weeping for her children; she refused to be consoled, because they are no more."

Matthew 2:16-18

Matthew writes this violent part of Christ's story dispassionately, more as a means to illustrate fulfilled prophesy than to say how utterly depraved this word can be.  But over the centuries artists have contemplated the Slaughter of the Innocents with deep conviction and emotion.

Bethlehem:

Genocide.  Over and over and over.  Nazi Germany.  Rwanda.  Aleppo.  So many more in between.  Have we learned nothing?  Wealth, science, evolution, education, globalism, post-modernism, war, humanitarianism...none of it has solved the dark spot in humanity.  

For this, Christ came, fled, returned, taught, suffered, died, and rose again.  For one heart at a time.

Aleppo:

Practice: Visio Devina

Over the years, I have enjoyed the practice of Lectio Devina: a slow, personal study of the Scripture, in which I meditate deeply on short passages.  I use the Revised Common Lectionary website for my scripture selections.  I love how it includes art and prayer that tie to the reading.  

This year, I am beginning the practice of Visio Devina, which is a method of connecting with God through visuals, often religious art.  Many churches, including mine, have chosen to forgo stained glass, icons such as crucifixes and statues, religious art, and other visual manifestations of the Story.  The philosophy is lovely:  the people are the church; the church is just a building to in which to gather, the Word of God stands alone.

But in my own quiet time, I benefit greatly from using art to accentuate my understanding of the Story and to connect with God.  Like Lectio Devina, I spend slow time with the image and listen for God to speak.   I research the symbolism.  The art is not necessarily inspired by God as is the Word, but that is ok. I do not worship the art or the artist, but I allow the art to lead me into worship.

Today, in the midst of Advent, while I wait for Christ's coming, I think on Mary.  There are so many wonderful paintings of the Annunciation, when they angel visits Mary with the life-changing news, but this one has always been my favorite for its simplicity and its "holy buckets, what's going on here" sentiment. 

Dante Gabriel Rossetti  Ecce Ancilla Domini! (The Annunciation)1849–50

Here are some things I ponder as I study this picture:  

I wonder how the dear teenage girl in our church is doing with her little son?  I will pray for her.

I wonder what it felt like for Christ to leave heaven.

I wonder how my friends are doing, the ones who have had life-changing events this year.  

What is that red thing in the picture?  

What is the gender of the angel?  Does it matter?

What does it feel like to be a refugee?  A pregnant teenager?  An angel?  

Here is a song from my Christmas CD that I wrote from Mary's perspective.

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My Three Words for 2017

Each year since 2013, I have paused in December to reflect on the year and envision the future.  I have made it a habit to choose three words to set the course for the new year.  These words are not exactly goals or resolutions, they are guiding principles, like compass points that keep me on the path of inward growth and outward purpose.  

Last year, my words were Lift, Pray, and Nourish.  They remained on my kitchen chalkboard wall for the entire year and I read them daily.  Here are my reflections on the power of these words:

Lift-  I wanted to get stronger through literal weight-lifting, and I wanted to be intentional with lifting burdens from others using my resources.  Happily, I am as strong as I've ever been thanks to a gym full of weights and machines and a log book where I track my progress.  And I've found ample opportunities to lift burdens of others...really, there is no shortage of burdens, so the onus is always on my listening and responding to the Holy Spirit.

Pray-  As always, this one is difficult for me, though I found recent comfort in this quote: 

“For me, prayer is a surge of the heart; it is a simple look turned toward heaven, it is a cry of recognition and of love, embracing both trial and joy.” ― Thérèse of Lisieux  

I think I am of the "surging heart" type, not the "prayer warrior" type.  I think that is okay.

Nourish-  I did better than in the past providng nourishing meals to my family, while openly admitting that every Friday is pizza night and not the healthy kind.  I definitely nourished my mind with a great deal of reading.  Because of my daughter's new driver's license and my kids' schedules this year, a whole world of uninterrupted time opened to me, which I used primarily for reading and listening to audio books.  

So enough of the old. My three words for 2017: Place, Practice, Magnify

Place-  The French have a culinary term called "mise en place."  (French pronunciation: ​[mi zɑ̃ ˈplas]) It refers to having everything in its place before you begin, all the ingredients and the pots and pans in place after carefully reading the recipe.  I've experimented a bit with this in the kitchen lately: placing pre-measured ingredients in little bowls around me before I begin cooking, which makes me feel like a professional and a bit glamorous, like I'm on a Food Network cooking show. But the implications are greater than an organized meal prep.  What if my home, my work, my relationships, and my mind could be described as "mise en place?"   Lofty, I know. 

Practice-  Lately I have been fascinated with all things liturgical and iconic.  I want to know the meanings behind the church year, liturgy, spiritual disciplines, and religious icons.  My evangelical church does not typically enter into these things, which is fine.  Better to do the work on my own.  But the point of knowing the meanings is to practice and experience their intended outcomes, which is deeper communion with God and others.  I am starting with the Daily Examen. 

Magnify- Mary said in Luke 1, "My soul magnifies the Lord."  She spoke this in response to God interrupting her simple life with a GREAT CALL.  She spoke it in the midst of personal turmoil and fear.  Whatever God asks of me, I want to magnify him.  And I want to hold up a magnifying glass to the needs of the world.  And I want to hold up the unforgiving glass to my own sin so that I may be ushered into God's river of forgiveness and the Holy Spirit's unending assistance.  

And with that, I am now accountable for another year of growth.  

On the Son Leaving

When a person leaves your home, there is a tilt in your universe.  The balance scale, so carefully dialed in through the years, is suddenly weighted differently.  Your side is too heavy.  His side is too light.  His room is too clean.  His new life is too mysterious.  

I forgot to take pictures the day we moved him into his dorm room.  I suppose we were too steeped in the moment, reconstructing the futon, laying out the rug, debating the best place for the refrigerator.  I feel badly for not documenting such a momentous occasion: my boy, entering his new room carrying a duffle of clothes and linens in one hand and his banjo in the other, and me following behind carrying a laundry basket and wondering if I did enough to prepare him.  

I wrote him this morning, telling him it's perfectly normal to have an identity crisis at the beginning of college, where you are a small fish (maybe an amoeba) in a big pond.  I don't know that he's actually having one, but I suspect he is.  It's so much better to be known than to start over with a great herd of unknowns.  

Jesus must have felt that way, walking from town to town, humming some futuristic Whitesnake song, "Here I go again on my own..."  Starting over with new people.  Expecting rejection mingled with acceptance.  Leaning on a bit of miracle-making.  

My understanding of life has always depended more on metaphor than numbered lists of "how tos." Currently, life is a balance scale, off-kilter and needing the weights rearranged.  A photo of my boy in his new life would help. Perhaps a miracle would help.  What exactly is the weight of a miracle?  

Lent: Wild Beauty

For the beauty of the earth

For the Glory of the skies, 

For the love which from our birth

Over and around us lies: 

Lord of all, to Thee we raise

this our hymn of grateful praise.

One of the most thrilling, most frightening, most rustically beautiful places on earth is the deep woods of Canada.  My head floods with memories of the place four hours north of the border...an island my Opa bought in 1950 for $500 on a remote lake in the Ontario wilderness.  I went there over and over again in the summers of my youth, and I'm sure I'll be able to recall a thousand childhood moments when I'm old and frail and can't remember the way to the store.  

I love the smell of gasoline because Opa would fill the motor tank before the long trek from portage to island, splashing little rainbows into the shallows.  I love cliffs that echo and carpets of pine needles and blueberries off the bush and magnificent storms over the waters.  I love stepping off a slick rock into clear, cold waters.  These are a few of my favorite things, as Maria would sing.  

Yes, this is me looking like a bro.

One year, something in the night scared me.  I brought home recurring nightmares that hung over my sleep for many years...some unseen monster looming in my house.  As I said, it could be a frightening place, like the day I met up with a bear on the beach. We went our separate ways, thankfully.

Another year, burning embers floated on the wind and ignited my favorite tinder-dry pine tree, and within hours, all of it, everything Opa and our family built, was gone.  The vinyl siding on the cabin melted like snakes lying in wait among the smoking remains of our memories.  That was a sad year.  Opa never went back once it was beautiful again, which took about 15 years.  My dad and uncle return yearly, though, and have rebuilt.  

I learned my first lesson about God in that place.  I learned that when a person lays down on a rock under a cathedral of stars far removed from civilization, there is no chance of believing it is all random and meaningless.  God formed this wildly imaginative earth, flung the stars into space, and said, "Jill, this is for you.  Find me in it.  Thank me for it.  Worship me from it."  

It took me another decade to embrace the story of Christ, and now I see Him in the first bud of Spring and in the crushed leaves of fall.  I see Him in the towering cedars that point heavenward and in the tiny seed that seems so lifeless and dry but holds everything within it to accomplish its purpose.  

Today I sing the hymn of Folliot Pierpont, a fellow nature-lover, song-writer, God-worshipper.

For the beauty of each hour

Of the day and of the night, 

Hill and vale and tree and flow'r 

Sun and Moon and stars of light 

Lord of all, to Thee we raise

this our hymn of grateful praise.

Lent: Covering

I often receive the seed of song inspiration from a Sunday morning sermon.  I have been blessed over the years with amazing pastors who preach with authority and humility, and know how to bring the Bible to life.  My life.  Sometimes I will chew on an illustration for quite some time, and a song will begin to form and work itself out of my head and through my pen. 

I marvel at the journey some of these seeds take before they blossom into a final song.  It can be like planting a sunflower seed and getting a morning glory.  Sometimes it's like planting a potato and getting a turnip.

I don't remember who was preaching that Sunday or what the point of the sermon was, but I remember he shared an interesting story of Noah.  Not the ark or the flood.  Not the animals or the mockers.  Later, after the water subsided and Noah found himself drunk and naked in his tent.  Really, it's right there in Genesis 9: 20-29.  He planted a vineyard, tested the wine, and overindulged.  There is some drama most people don't expect to see in the Bible, but along with being instructional and divinely inspired, the Bible often simply portrays a slice out of someone's life.  And those someones aren't perfect.

What captured my attention was not Noah's awkward situation, but his sons' reactions.  The first one to see him comes out of the tent ready to tattle on dad, but the other two shield their eyes, walk backward into the room, and carefully cover their father.  I'm always watching for stories that foreshadow the coming of Christ, and this is a perfect example.  Christ takes pity on us in our naked, sinful state, and he becomes our cover.  He atones for our sin.

Did you know the word “atonement” comes from the Hebrew word “cofer,” which means “to cover.”  Cofer was the name of the lid on the ark of the covenant, and it is also called “the mercy seat.”  Christ is the merciful covering for all the sinful darkness in our lives, the atoning sacrifice.  In cozier terms, his offering is like a warm, soft blanket on a cold, winter day.  In my darkest times, I have often felt the comfort of that supernatural covering.

I know a young teenage girl who was experiencing much psychological trauma, and found herself crumbling one day.  Her mom realized she needed to take her to the hospital for some mental treatment.   I found out that she listened to the song “Cover You” over and over on her way to the hospital, but that when she arrived in the unit, they took away her music.  I sent over the softest blanket I could found for this sweet girl, and I attached the lyrics to the song.  They are the words I imagine Christ sings over us in our darkest hour.  We can't hear them audibly, but when we feel the peace like a river wash over us, we are hearing the words with our soul, where deep calls to deep.

Here is a link to my song, Cover You:

https://soundcloud.com/jill-k-pearson/cover-you

I will cover you with hope when hope is like the wind

I will cover you with love, it covers up a multitude of sin

I will cover you with tears, sharing in your pain

and I will cover you with peace, when words are in vain

Lent: Prone to Wander

Of any line in any hymn, I submit that this one from Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing is as honest and raw as they come...

Prone to wander, Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love

Here's my heart, Lord, take and seal it, seal it for Thy courts above

This is one of the grand thoughts we ought to dwell on during this Lenten journey toward the cross, how prone we are to wander from our faith.  Life gets too hard and we consider rejecting it all.  Life gets too easy and we forget to draw near.  This journey is a steady battle to keep our heart soft and our ear inclined to God.  

When Robert Robinson wrote the hymn, Come Thou Fount of Every Blessing in 1758, he understood the depths of wandering.  His father died when he was young and his mother, unable to control him, sent him to London to learn barbering.  Instead he pursued drinking and gang-life, even visiting a fortune-teller at the age of 17.  Something about that experience unsettled him, and the next evening he attended an evangelistic meeting held by George Whitefield, one of the greatest preachers in history, noted to have a voice that was part foghorn and part violin.  I wish I could listen to the sermon he gave that night.

The preacher's words haunted Robinson for 3 years until he gave his heart to Chist and soon entered the ministry.  One day he wrote a hymn for his church for Pentecost Sunday, Come Thou Fount, and it is still beloved by Christians today, and is one of my personal favorites.  

I identify with Robinson's story.  As a teenager, I lived a life devoid of faith and fraught with loose morals and questionable choices that would leave me often unsettled but unsure what needed to change.  One day as an RA in college, I attended a seminar on witchcraft that was part of my "diversity training."  I was outwardly tolerant of the ideas I heard about, but inwardly, I was shaken.  God used that experience to open up conversations with my boyfriend, who is now my husband, on spiritual matters.  Not long after, when God sought me out one day in a courtyard on the campus of Iowa State, I sensed that He was the answer.  Shortly thereafter, I committed my life to Christ and have spent the last 24 years inviting God to have his way in my life.

Jesus sought me as a stranger, wandering from the fold of God;

He, to rescue me from danger, interposed his precious blood.

There is an interesting line in verse to that says, "Here I raise my Ebenezer, hither by Thy help I come."  This line was inspired by 1 Samuel 7:12,  where the prophet Samuel raises a stone as a monument and saying, "Hitherto has the Lord helped us."  Samuel names the stone Ebenezer, which translates to Stone of Help.

Enjoy this gorgeous rendition of the song by Chris Rice...

Lent: Swift and Beautiful

Lent calls for a reality check.  We often live two lives...the one that represents our ideals and best Facebook-worthy moments, and the one where we settle into old habits and lost opportunities.    As a songwriter, I write songs that probably make me sound highly spiritually attuned, but pull back my curtain, and I'm often wasting time, skipping Bible study, short with my kids, cold toward my husband, and the list goes on.  Ahem...let's just close that curtain and keep you out of my business.

Frances Havergal wrote the great consecration hymn, Take My Life and Let it Be, in 1874.  She wrote it first and then, throughout her life, chose to live it.  She wrote, "Take my voice and let me sing always, only, for my King," which eventually led her to only sing sacred music and give up singing with the Philharmonic.  She wrote, "Take my silver and my gold/ Not a mite shall I withhold," and one day packed up her massive jewelry collection and donated all but 2 family pieces.

I have always been drawn to the line in her song, "Take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful for Thee."  It represents the kind of servant I want to be, racing to the need and helping someone in a beautiful way.  But, honestly, I hold back, often not willing to dive into anyone's mess.  I am not swift about service most of the time, and there's usually nothing particularly beautiful about it.  I plug away at the mundane chores of life, trying to add little touches of beauty.  I reach occasionally for the higher ideals and am grateful for the blessings that come from them.

Much of life is not a lush, beautiful, orchestral piece, but a plainsong, hummed over the sink.  It's like these words I penned one particularly humbling day...

This is not the song I meant to write

It's lacking insight

And a heavenly melody

It’s just the psalm of a tired mom

An ordinary song

From the kitchen chapel, drinking Snapple

Washing dishes, praying wishes

But there is always a need that I can meet, just as Christ offered his abundance for my deficit, and my feet can learn, eventually, to be swift and beautiful about it.

Lent: Vision

One cloudy June morning, my husband and I climbed into a tiny car and set off nervously.  The roads were incredibly narrow and the speed limit was frighteningly fast.  Dave was getting his bearings driving on the left side of the road, encountering multi-lane roundabouts where drivers were less than patient with confused foreigners, and experiencing great relief when the busy roads of Galway finally spit us out into the traditional Irish countryside.  The beauty enveloped us, like a page from an Irish novel or a classic poem by Yeats, where the grass was green as emeralds and cows stopped traffic as they moseyed across the road.  I think I even saw a leprechaun by a rainbow eating Lucky Charms.

 My mind wandered to the story of Patrick, born in 373 AD, in Scotland, captured by Irish pirates when he was 16, and forced into slavery.  As we passed miles of ancient stone fences lining properties, I wondered if his hand had dug any of those stones from the rocky soil.  When Patrick escaped and returned to his home, his family was overjoyed.  But one night he dreamed that an Irishman was pleading with him to come evangelize Ireland.  That vision changed the course of his life.  At the age of 30, he returned to his captors with the Latin Bible.  He planted 200 churches and baptized 100,000 converts.

Because of God's work through Patrick, we now enjoy a plethora of  hymns, sermons, and worship songs from the likes of Keith and Kristyn Getty and many others.  But my very favorite hymn began as a poem by an anonymous author in the 8th century and was eventually translated and set to a traditional Irish folk song called Slane.

Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart

Naught be all else to me save that Thou art

Thou my best thought by day or by night

waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light

This song is beloved by my family.  In fact, my son came home from a homeschool graduation meeting recently, saying he successfuly lobbied for it to be the theme song of the graduation ceremony.  I'll be prepared for tears as all the homeschool families sing it on that momentous day in May.  

It is the perfect song for this Lenten journey, in which my heart's desire is to let my vision of Christ overtake me like the sea wind at the Cliffs of Moher, which was the prize at the end of our perilous drive through Ireland.  

Here is Ginny Owens singing Be Thou My Vision, which is all the sweeter because she is blind.

Lent: A Rugged Cross

Thoughts of Lent always lead me to thoughts of my heritage, which lead me to thoughts of my grandma.  

If my grandma was standing at the sink washing dishes, there was a good chance she was whistling her favorite hymn, The Old Rugged Cross.  She had one of those rich whistles that billowed with vibrato and carried through the house so that before you knew it, you were whistling or humming along.  

I wonder if she knew about George Bennard, the composer of the hymn.  He was a traveling evangelist with the Salvation Army in the early 1900s.  After a difficult season of ministry, he realized he needed to develop a better understanding of the cross, so he delved into study of the scriptures.  The cross became more than a symbol to him; it became the heartbeat of his ministry.  John 3:16 virtually leapt off the page in his mind's eye.  For months, he crafted a song that would express his deeper understanding, and when it was complete, he shared it with friends who were so moved they paid the fees to have it printed.  It is, of course, now a hymnal standard. 

On a hill far away stood an old rugged cross

The emblem of suffering and shame

And I love that old cross where the dearest and best

for a world of lost sinners was slain

So I'll cherish the old rugged cross

'til my trophies at last I lay down

and I'll cling to the old rugged cross

and exchange it someday for a crown

I sang this song at Grandma's funeral and thought back over her life.  She was devoted to her study of the scriptures.  I know this, because I have her Bible now, filled with the red-penciled highlights she so carefully drew, always using a ruler.  

Many afternoons she would sit with her Bible by her radio, which was housed in a giant console, and listen to the teachings of J. Vernon McGee.  I also inherited her 5 volume set of his witty, conversational inductive study.

When I was little, I thought she was very religious and a little scary because she didn't coddle and spoil me like my other grandparents.  But as I got older, I realized that she was complicated.  She loved her Lord but did not know how to effectively show affection to her daughters when she was raising them.  She was legalistic without being loving.  She let a bitter root grow in her heart about her marriage and confessed to me one day, when I was an adult sitting on the bed in her guest room, that she had regrets about her life and marriage.  She felt she was mistreated and unloved by her in-laws and regretted ever moving to Iowa from her beloved life in North Carolina.  

I suppose this is why she was drawn to the old, rugged cross, with its rough-hewn surface and splinters and associated suffering.  She did not much enjoy her journey on earth. 

Tucked in her Bible is a page printed with this wisdom:

I think of her reading over this with the sense that it was too late for her, but maybe, someday, her granddaughter would read it and take it to heart as she was raising her own children.  I have.

I know without a doubt that she prayed for me my whole life...me, who grew up without any faith.  I am certain she prayed me right into that defining moment in college where I took the leap to embrace Christ and the Christian life.  I imagine those prayers to be a jewel in her heavenly crown, which she traded one day many years ago for a cross.  

Lent: Blood Fountain

How can the earth have spun so quickly around the sun that Ash Wednesday is here again, like two daughters, grasping hands and turning in mind-blurring circles, collapsing with hard breath?  But after the breath returns and the heart rate slows, there is time to stare at the spinning ceiling and slowly get your bearings.  This is what I am doing: catching my breath and reflecting on Lent, allowing it to come into slow focus.  

The ground is white and frozen hard in Minnesota in February.  It takes a sun gathering up its strength to melt snow and thaw soil and crack ice.  The magic will happen by Easter.  The thaw will have begun.  It's happening.  Now.  In my heart.

During this thawing season of Lent, I intend to meditate on the words of hymns and think about the dear souls who wrote them.  As a songwriter, I am captivated by lyric and the minds that craft them.  Each of my own songs has a story behind its creation.  Perhaps I will reflect on a few of those, too.  This will be my small offering each day of this journey.  

There is a fountain filled with blood drawn from Immanuel's veins

And sinners, plunged beneath that flood, lose all their guilty stains.

-William Cowper, There is a Fountain

William Cowper, who grew up in the 1700s, was so acquainted with loss, the deaths of his mother and multiple siblings, and bullying at boarding school that he eventually threw away his Bible and attempted suicide.  It was in an asylum under the gentle care of Dr. Nathaniel Cotton, that William found regeneration in these words:

Whom God set forth as a propitiation by His BLOOD, through faith, to demonstrate His righteousness, because in His forbearance God had PASSED OVER 

the sins that were previously committed.  

Romans 3:25

[propitiation: appeasement of a deity]

Today, I think about the sins I've previously committed...the critical tongue, the selfishness, the withholding of love and grace, and all the excuses I made to justify them.  I get a sickening feeling as I look at it all square and call it what it is and accept that a lot of it genuinely hurt people around me.  

I dip my toe in this blood-fountain.  Forgive me, Lord.  I scoot closer.  Drop my body in.   For I have sinned.  Plunge down all the way.  Wash me.  Burst up through the surface, cleansed.  O, God, thank you.

My 3 Words for 2016

A handful of you have asked me about my three words for the new year.  Years ago, when I read about this idea on some guy's blog, I became intrigued and motivated to do this kind of high-arching goal-setting exercise.  Rather than write down a list of specific goals and resolutions each year, which quickly annoy the heck out of me,  I instead contemplate the stage of life I am in and create a framework of words that become a filter for my choices.  I post them around the house so they stay on my mind.  Admittedly, after a few months, they blend into the scenery, but every now and then, they jump out at me and remind me to ask...how's it going?  

These are the three words that have bubbled to the top of my thoughts over the last few weeks:  LIFT, PRAY, NOURISH.  (Kind of like Eat, Pray, Love, but hopefully not so self-serving as Ms. Gilbert's approach.)  

I'm not sure why LIFT is my word of choice, but it seems to encompass two personal values...physical strength and serving others.  I want to be able to lift heavy things, from furniture and dumbbells to medicine balls and toddlers running around church.  I want to push myself in the area of weight training at the gym.  My husband loves when I buff up and frankly, I've gotten a little soft over the last few years.  

I also want to LIFT the burdens of others when I can, using my gifts and resources and heart.  This is all about noticing needs, listening to God, and responding to that holy nudge.  It can hurt and be messy.  It can mean sacrifice and expense.  But it is a charge from God himself.  So I pray this song: "Take my feet and let them be swift and beautiful for thee," powerful words from one of my favorite hymns. 

PRAY is simple and direct, but it is oh so hard for me.  I think on God a lot, but the talking/listening part gets pushed aside, and I always feel the void in my spirit.  So I came up with an idea...nothing novel, just new to me.  I am keeping a prayer journal and spending each day of the week praying for important people and issues in my life.  Each person in my immediate family has a day dedicated to him or her.  Friends and extended family have a day.  I have a day to pray for personal needs.  And the world in general has a day.  As soon as I sit down with my coffee and Happy Light, I open my journal for focused prayer.  Then I read scripture from the online Revised Common Lectionary and meditate awhile on it.  

NOURISH is a word that sings in my ear.  It's about feeding myself and family nutritious foods and pouring love and grace into my relationships.  To me, this word is a pearl among all healthy living and psychology terminology.  

So there you go and here I go.  Welcome, sweet new year of opportunities to grow and do better.